To good to be true

Err, too much thing has happened lately. doesnt know where exactly i have to start.

Oh there's one thing i would love to share, i have been officially accepted in Sheraton Maldives Full Moon Resort & Spa. I was beyond speechless when i saw the job contract sent t to me. All i knew is i was crying in joy and gone completely speechless. Then after, i got a call from Mr Ahu, informing that i need to submit my documentation for them to apply my working visa.

Oh dear whispered in my little heart saying, isn't that this is a dream come true, at last! YET, i have to deep contemplating for this as this kinda chances doesn't comes twice in our lifetime. Too many things to take care about as for now before i say yes.

Hmmmm.......... What shall i do now.

Law of Attraction

19th September 2010 - Sunday

I've been contemplating of improving myself & swift for a new change. Without any doubt, i google for new jobs. Yeah, i know it is nothing to shout about but as for me, it's a good start. It's time for me to get a change.

Oh well, i've been joining the current employer for nearly 3 years for now. I am very much enjoyed as a front liner, you get the one way ticket to meet plenty (differences in characters, cultures of people). Ahaa, correct me if i am wrong. Not to forget all those nasty moments i got into. Well, lets just be positive cause isnt this is part of the priceless experiences.

I sent out a couple of resumes without any doubt. Surprisingly, i got an email and phone calls the next day(minus the very smarty pants me was out for lunch and never bothered to tag my cell along). Damned, i said once i saw the emails & few unknown numbers.

Read through the email and instantly revert back accordingly! I was understood that the Director of Guest Services of Sheraton Maldives Full Moon & Spa would like to do a telephone interview with me when i'm available. Isn't this is a good opportunity?

I got few miscalled in the evening and i felt damned again cause didn't manage to pick up (it was all those unknown numbers). See, i missed out for the second times!

Cring cring, yes this time! It rings again! I answered and mandarin spoken lady speaks to me and told me she is calling from Sheraton Maldives. Asking whether i'm off the duty and is it convenience to do the telephone interview with them. It takes approximately 30 minutes for the phone interview. My heart like pounding on a high machine gear but intended to sound as calm as i could to not spoil things up.

Here i am now, still waiting if i am chosen for this job. Whatever the result is, i'd hope for the best and if its not my luck then i shall try again next time.

With love... ♥

Too good to be true

Oh dear. Chances doesn't comes in twice, right?

I've met a dear friend of mine, who offers me a pretty much good deal. All i need to do is send my CV and i'm good to go for the good news, most likely yes!

YET, it has the pros & cons behind all. I shall need to have deep contemplating on this.

Breath in & out and i'll nudge you in awhile. xx

Time flies

Dear god, missing in the blogspace for quite awhile. Well, it has been a year or so to be precise.

Well, of all i could say. Plenty of saga has been happening in the past. Only god knows how is it. The good & bad memories, will forever remain in me.

Will not elaborate much for now but it's just a kick start to make sure I'm still alive & kickin.

Cheers & have a good day ahead peeps! :)

love lockdown

set me free from this goddamn rut! I cant take this anymore. When things doesnt work out the way you want, this is what will happen, you fret and whine. Then again, it wont change a thing. It will still haunt you, bug you, annoy you, irritate you and fuck! this is the best word that can define how i felt at this freakin moment. i wish i could cry a river so eventually this sucky soury feelings will faded away but i cant. this is sucks. i loathe this kinda feeling.

one ever told me that: "Dont be such naive honey, this aint real, the world is cruel and dont get fooled by that". i cant truly comprehend it now. Waiting, let me ask you how much patience you've got? you will never get me and after a deep consideration plus thinking, the best thing i could do now is forget and ove on with life. dwelling on the existing problem aint gonna solve any headaches of mine, ever! you get what i mean. that's mean spiltin is the best solution ever to the problem we had. we hadnt speak nor see each other for sometime. Though you could be as sweet as a sugarpie, i just dont see that this is real. its like a broken strings that you cant fix. i dont feel you and whats more the love. this is just bullshit and you were just another airhead i randomly met i shall say. please that you were all gone and thank to let me see the whole picture and the real you.

this is driving me insane. i cant seems to elaborate much. the more i tried to recall, the more i hurt myself. i would love to tear off this chapter of life and goodbye!

dadadee

Oh noo, please dont! Nothing seems to help but this is what you call 'reality'.
It could always be nasty but then again, reality. I've to accept the fact.

Like some say, you dont put salt to an already opened wound. how could i be so blind to even see this coming. i wonder what is up with me lately. i am freaking insecure with the existing relationship i am in now. It does blossom somehow but good things doesnt stay long. it needed enormous amount of faith to keep it going. it is not from one side but from both individual.

urghh, i dont feel like elaborate much. will this be desert or disaster or just another drama. i will discover it real soon.

Dream

whoops. i know ive been neglected of not posting nor updating anything here. Life has been treated me fairly good as far. The contentment aside of blogging which i find within these few months of being MIA of the blogspace explains some of it.

I wonder why does time flies like a bullet trains nowadays or you may say just like in a lightning speed . I don't even know where exactly i should have start, just yet. There is plenty of thing things me myself would love to share. There's something inside i need to rave and rave so i could eventually lift off the burden in me. i am not the type who holds everything in, orelse i couldve been already a psychotic which in case of an extreme.

Everything seems to be same old same old to me. Despite that, there is few of dearly of excitement which god has given me as of late. Mr Cupid has no doubt of his awesomeness of pairing power. Somehow somewhat it blossom! okay, you shouldve know what i am tryin to say. arent u? hahaha.

Beside that, everything else has been great. Not much comment for work, everything is still the same old thing for me, i prefer it to be left unsaid.

I've been thinking lately due to surronded by the temptation of getting myself a tattoo. Yes, a real ones not the air brush thingy by the real shit. I'm thinking of getting a cupic with a angel wings/ mermaid with the angel wings just right on my back. Ignore the pain for once, but i would really contemplating to get one done for me. I am serious and what now, i just have to search for the exact picture of it. uhmm...

Till then, i am indeed longing for a break. a lil break to be away and being able to not think about anything but relaxx. hahahha.

Alright, will write more soon.

Loxe. xx

aint got nothin

Lesson learned. Just dont be too gullible to other. You'll get nothing in return but only make yourself an idiot.


Later. xx

darn it

omgodd,i felt sinfully bloated. it is like my stomach will explode in just anytime. blame the indulgence i had just got myself into. to be honest i had just finished a whole plate of penne. sinfully penne and now i am one bloated python. somebody save me from feeling darn guilty. sighed. neither any of anything will help. evil smile.

case of an extreme

darn it. why does culprits ever exist?
basically and obviously these culprits are just too jealous or perhaps they just don't have a life? they tend to have this kind of jealousy for people and then envied them and ended up crated such a nonsense story and oh it actually cracked me up when i heard what these culprits trying to spread around behind me.

i was almost dumbfounded when i come to know the real story. okay, there it goes again, i shouldve just ignore them fucking culprits and certainly comprehend and fell ashamed for themselves for making themselves such a fool to me.

boo for you mean mean people.

sweet

distance distance.

how she supposed to survive? 

major confusion

To be honest, i wonder how it(the feeling) develops. ever, i don't know.

it leaves me in the midst of everything. i loathe this to every bits of it. 

it gives me never ending heartaches and guess what, i still cant get over it.

why do i still keeping this kind of 'hope' which cant be a real deal?

why summer holidays cant be any longer? i have plenty of why for now. 

Perhaps, i shall contemplating of what youve just said earlier. 

p:s= okay, this is what happens when you are bored and think a lil too much. :p

broken strings

hmmp.. its as early as 3 in the morning. i am wide awake since i am given on overnight shift.

done most of my task and now just hoping the clock will tick faster and for the sun to come out.

basically i am lost without words right now. doesnt know whats more to say, guessing this is still consider normal.

there is gazillion things on my mind now and i doubted how long does it takes for me to accomplished all of it.

1) Done with my referral paper and graduate.

2) Getting the braces on soon.

3) Able to get some r&r.

alalalala. i have no idea what more to say. i am a walking zombie now. i doesnt even understand what the hell i am writing now. excuse me for the nonsense. :p

G'nite bloggers!

the land under?

hmmp,i still believe there is another chance for us to get it right.
as much pessimist i were before to the bone of things.
to be honest, why just not ignore it for once.
you made my day. i truthfully hope i could make it by this year.
not only to see you but the plan itself is really worth considerate.
i should contemplating this matter in details.
now, there is something to excite me once again.

p:s: i am feeling butterflies in my stomach. :D

waawee

omgoddd! i want to attend rainforest music festival. anyone up for this event?

voice of the underdog

Hallelujah, she has gone through the worst of times and now she is back on track.

Supposedly i shouldve be in kk on this coming friday, yet always expect the unexpected as someone used to tell me. i have cancelled the trip right after i found out the truth. it has jinxed the whole plan yet thanked that i have awaken from lies. hmmp, i shouldnt have go into details and will just keep it short and nice before it gets nastier and bitchier which i cant control.

Apart of this, i simply cant wait any longer for our visit to tawau. it is time again for anjals come out and play. lol. the main reason that excites most of us is we are going to meet marina. since we havent gotten the chance to meet up for quite sometimes. this time we are so gonna make it happened! i have already checked on the air fares and blablabla. can you feel the adrenaline started pumping in my veins? lol.

the feeling is so good and surreal. it something good to keep me looking forward in next few month.

anyhow, today is wednesday. i am given for afternoon shift. hope the stationaries i requested will be arrive by today. it is like a burden on me which i dont like. the feeling sucks big time. anyhow, it doesnt help me either to fret over things. dear god, i just simply hope it will be come in by today.

hmmp, i shall write another time.

currently listen to a song by ungu - untukmu selamanya. as what my friend commented on me, what the hell happened to you, i am amazed that you actually 'layan' indo song? this is no offense to anyone. it cracked me up but it is just a song. nothing much, plus it keep reminds me of 'yesterday'. thats all i could tell. xx

the end

She couldnt take this anymore. She had enough of heartaches by keep on holding on. She wont get in to the details, of all she knows it has already comes to an end.

will move on with life and the chapter is closed now. :(

wake up

Back to basic.

Holiday is over just in a lightning speed and obviously i am so not over the moon, just yet. My mind is still linger elsewhere and obviously i am not concentrating at all. Not even. I missed my close friends back in kk and everything else that has to deal with borneo.

I fret i rant i whine. Why does time passing just like the bullet train speed and left me in this kind of mess? For your information, I have been back to work, trying to be on track and struggling hard to focus. Nothing much i could elaborate about work life. It has been the same old same old thing, like usual. Nothing much excite me nor any i could made a topic of.

I am more excited to tell of my trip down to Borneo recently, to be specific 'kk'. Although it was just for a couple days visit but i do have a blast. Let me recall, it has been like almost a decade i didnt manage to be down since i'm working now. No longer living on a student life, those carefree days is not there anymore with me.

Anyhow, thank to my dearies anjals to make it all happening. Manage to meet most of my close friends and this is more than what i could ask for. Although marina is not around but i am sure we shall see each other soon for our next trip to tawau. We definitely will do so.

Grrr, it has been a couple of mind blowing insane nights down there. We watched few movies in a row, shop like nobody business, the karaoke-ing sessions, we partied till the morning star comes out. Sum up to all, we really enjoyed it and have a good times.

Apart of this, we (i mean me & him) are finally meeting each other (exclusively). Let alone all the waiting all this while and although it was just a short rendezvous i still personally think we have a splendid awesome times. to be honest, i am missing him already by now. I better stop before it get to sound all mushy and corny plus it is a long story so I'd better keep it short and nice.

Till then will upload the pictures later. Need to go now and prepare for tonight dinner. :D

halo

Yuhuu dearest blogger, happy chinese new year and gong xi fa cai!!!

Yes,i know i havent gotten the chance to update anything here. Have been pretty busy for this couple of weeks yet im still very alive & kickin. Still the same old same old me. :D

Chinese new year is just splendid wonderful. All my dearest cousin is in town and it has never been a quite moments. Not to forget all the yummiest foods we've got on this festive season. I just hope that i can still manage to hold my stomach and what not the ang pau, gimme moreee and gambling time. black jack, ketam-ketam, you name it my dear. lol. Anyhow, will upload the pics later then.

By the way, ill be off to kk in Thursday. Hope nothing goes wrong and i couldnt wait more to meet my babes! mwahhhhh. Gotta off soon as my cousin is screamin at me not to sit in front of computer to rot my butt and mind whereas all of them is waiting me for ketam-ketam and drinking session.

Love. xxx

thoughts

If only i own a time machine, i will truthfully hope and will turn back time and erase that phase away from my life. It has given me so much of nightmare. If i will ever own any kind of power, i wish i could have some kind of power which i can erase memories. Well, i was actually chatting with one of my friend and he suddenly comes up to this. Memories, and it really hits me. His memories and mine is actually related to the same topic, love & relationship. Somehow or somewhat it really does hit me and got me thinking through the past. I always tried to not have any thoughts on it, for those bitter memories of mine. Yet, i couldnt stop thinking even now.

How i wish i wont made that mistake. Why i have to go through this? Why and so many why i tend to ask myself. Though i cant do much but i hope i will get over this eventually.

Somebody please save me away.