Gosh, its killing softly! Yes, the situation im in now is really killing me. Not physically but mentally it does! I want to get my arse out of here, like seriously man! Cut off the chinese new year celebration thingy, it was blast a to me. I have fun and some crazy times with the mates around me whom i love them to the very tiny bits. Yet, there's one problems i facing now and the peer pressure i had. Urgh, stressful you know. All of them were asking and throwing me the same old question? I'm tired and fed up of listening and whats more to answer. The question will be : Hey, you should get boyfriend girl, whats life without the other half huh? Hello, in my head! Do i have a a choice people, let's look at the state we were in now. The people are so little, the possibility and the amount of guy you will ever get to meet is very minimal and although if you thought you met the one, they will most probably had tied a knot or was indeed happily in a relationship with one. Besides, i have the most unusual working hour. It goes by shift and it is not fixed to one. This situation saddened me tremendously. Like when you meet someone you think is right for you, and apparently he was some kind of interested with you, yet there's always something against or there will probably some kind of boundaries between. Bad bad timing, always! Yuck, i hate hate this ones. I'm losing hope for this love thingy. It irritates me in some way when i come to think about it sometimes.
You know, come to think about my past. The guy i had mingled around with, no one of them has ever got my heart. In a way, it means they doesn't seems to give me the feeling of secure, the commitment i want to have. Sighed for the world today. Where has my Mister going? Is he's lost in somewhere? haha. I may sounds desperately longing for a man but hey! I know i should still put up a standard.
To my girls, i beg you! Stop asking me for getting a boyfriend. When it comes it will so i prefer just go with flow. I need no rushing in this matter, i prefer move my attention to my career for now which is far important beyond anything. Well, of course i'll be lying if i say i never thought of considering about my lovelife which was pretty sad in some way but uhm since i still need sometime to get out from the past i had. The most nightmare i was in one before. Those were the days when you were still young and there was the times you make mistakes. When i come to think and reflect back, it has been a nightmare which me myself wouldnt believe of what i have been done. Well, correction, im still young now, not even in my 20's. lol. Whatever it is, past is past and whats done in done. We dont live in the past and definitely poeple moves on right? As for now, i just want to live life to the fullest. Set some goals in mind, some responsibilities for self, and hoping each day will be a better tomorrow.
Current mood : Swinging. :(
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