[lahyf] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, plural lives [lahyvz]~ A corresponding state, existence, or principle of existence conceived of as belonging to the soul: eternal life.
Too bad, but life is like that. This is what pops out in my mind these day. For shit that happens on me, i just couldn't flush it away by not thinking about it and whats more avoiding? There is too many things that happened to me in 2007. The good and bad ones of course.
The good ones? I think i'm thankful enough cause God has given me the beautiful friendship i needed most when i'm far far away from home. They are the ones who take care of me, stand by me, support me no matter what, being around me when i needed them most and so on. They do means a hell loads for me. Indeed, they are very darling to me and the bundles of joy too. Reminisce back the old days, i definitely thanked to have them. I wont elaborate more about this cause i think the good ones will be good to treasure and to keep in mind.
Despite the good things, now is the bad ones. It has seriously gives me a hard time to go through it. The conflict of the friendship i shall say. You know how it feels when someone close to you stabbed you at the back, bad mouthing about you, look down on you and so on. This is the not so good memories and experience i had back then. Apparently this person is a very good friend of mine but things that this person has done is the whole loads of disappointments. Scary what life could brings of. All i can say is probably this person is surrounded with huge of jealousy. Thats the main reason why i think. You know when i found out about this, i merely gone insane in one moment. How could this happen? I tend to ask myself. I cried myself to sleep and wouldnt know what to do. I dont have the gut to confront and whats more to tell her off. Perhaps im being too gullible. Well, a friend on ours did confronted and talked to her after that. She did apologized to me as well for the mistakes she has done so do i accept her apology and thought i would have just ignore this but no when i heard more rumors about me that this person tried to spread and gossip around. At one point, i see black out in everything! Im losing hopes for her. Thought she will changed and learned from mistakes but sigh! So things get worst after that and our friendship dissolved. Since then, i heard stories that she puts all the blame on me, claims that i seek for attention in a disgust manner, say hell loads of awful things about me and brainwashed everyone she could and tried to make me look bad as a person. I dont know. Perhaps the mistake I've done is all because i didn't speak out! Well, things happen! I dont own a time machine to reverse to the phase and fix everything out. Though this is not a very good memories i had so far in this year but it definitely teaches me a lot and making me wiser as a person now.
p/s: Good judgment comes from experience and experience comes from bad judgment. Perhaps this is just part of life, we have to go through the ups and downs in the bumpy life journey and this makes us smarter.
1 comment:
Ya....i understand how u feel.... what do u think about me... I never meet sum1 with that attitude..very loud n got secret weapon.. how do feel startin friend n she already start to lie.. what is friends for... we all trust each other.. we're not lookin on the cover.. inside that counts.. no need to lie or brag.. this is what we call Poison.... go figure...God knows..
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