Oh my gosh, lets me do the counting. I'm out of college for like err few blooody months and still i'm still hang on here without doing anything to improve myself, as a person no matter in and out. I'm feeling fuckinabsolutely useless. It actually makes me feels like I'm a parasite who lives on the hospitality of others and it was perfectly applicable to my situation now.
I asked parents for expenses and days by days I'm starting to feel awfully ashamed of myself. I should be earning my own penny by now i supposed, but heck! I'm still 'jobless' and so on the moon still. Although I did submitted few resumes to the local companies yet i don't see nor hear any reply from them. It has causes me so much aggravation. Where do i stand in ten years time? How does my future look like? What is next? I tend to ask myself and applied all these thoughts on me and totally scared of it.
I'm tired to answer when people asks me: "Hows your application?" , "You found any job yet?" , "What do you do in life?". It actually gets me to a point where i see myself as a very lousy lamest person ever, seriously! I hate the way i am right now, I'm so friggin disappointed and depressed over my situation.
p/s: [Self-motivation] I need to get myself out of this! I shall be more optimist. Most importantly, i should at least try again and put more efforts for this. Who knows what will happen rite. Only myself can ensure a better tomorrow for myself. Go on girl. haha. How corny does this sound? I know! :D
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