Am i mind-blowing-insane? I wonder how much my insanity level would be by now? Ooh no, i dont ever want to know that. I just feel extremely fuckin low. I dont know why. It just gives me so much of headache! I feel like hiding myself in a tiny tiny hole whereas no one could ever find me. Well, thats exactly how i feel at this very moment!
You know after the three friggin months since the day i arrived safely to this little ooh-so-tiny island, i started to reminisce back all those memories i had, things ive done back then, things that happened to me (the good & bad ones). I'm so speechless for a second and yeah my tears did rolling down a bit.
Yes, it was good to know and have a few quality friends and you started to call them your bestie. You go through the ups and downs in life, you know the exactly thick and thin of them, you share your shoulders together, you basically spent most of your time together doing those most dumbest craziness bizzare things. Auuwww,thats the good ones ayy! I'm seriously missing it. Those were the days of all i can say now. Indeed, it was! Couldn't even imagine how life's gonna be without them around. Truly appreciate them for what they have done in the past! Thanks for being with me all the time, thanks for being supportive, thanks for become my life savior. Once again thank u darlings!
For the things ive done wrong in the past. For the choices ive made wrong. For the games ive lost. It has causes me so much of depression and hell loads of aggravation for reasons. Yet, it has teaches me and leads me to the wiser person now. We learned from our mistakes and people changed over time! You know how it feels like when people picking on you, relate you from the past each time you trying to mingle, bad mouthing you and brainwashing others of how bloody awful you are, keep talk and talk and talk about you from what you did from the past. What even worse, these stuck up person even tried to make you look as bad as a person! Examples like if a person drinks, clubs, has premarital sex, do drugs does that make them a bad person? Cause i know a lot of people who do and they are some of the best human beings I've ever met in my life. They have the heart, feeling despite like those who always being such a horrid shrek!
In fact, for those people who have been hating me so much, who is on on their major-loser-trip , those who despises me in many ways! I have totally no clue and couldn't care less about it! Heres is something i would like to blurb-out. Though i couldn't even been bothered if apparently anyone of you reading this.
They kept on reminisce about people's so not good days whereas they were actually very insecure of themselves so that they tried to make you in the same boat as they are. BOOooo for those losers who sits on their loserland to judge themselves superior to others while those really superior people doesn't! Get a life please, pathetic! Wonder how you ever comes out from your loserville? Stop criticize and diggin about people past! It doesnt make you any better though. Stop adding up spices to the story! Stop being so pessimist and negative on people. People change overtime and so their lives. We live on and definitely we don't live in the past. Get it over you mean mean people!
Mood at the moment : Melancholy.
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